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take a deep breath, prepare to read something ridiculously scattered.


Emily || sixteen years old

I am everywhere. It's not like i'm planning on living here all my life, I already have a basic "my wants" list stated out, over + over..

I was born with six arms. Well two, actually, but I'd very much enjoy the extra four limbs. It would guarentee a spot for me where no one else would be, plus actually using "I'm an individual" correctly, unlike most people, who claim they don't belong to a "group" and are all individual lookers, though you honestly all look very similar in my eyes.

I'm only attracted to girls, i guess that could be a lie, since it's only my girlfriend i'll set anything of myself on. My social skills are in the gutter, there's only those "few" people, who i feel there, others are just illusions.

I find the most obscure looking objects legendary.

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We dumpstered, squatted, and shop-lifted our lives back. Everything fell into place when we decided our lives were to be lived. Life serves the risk taker.
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I know my beliefs on things.
but Extremists can believe otherwise..

Plan to live in an appartment with two to four others, possibly in New York, maybe London, well somewhere with something odd going around. Hopefully making my own thing happen, designing clothes, pleasing the ones i care for.

Which reminds me..

Have you finally realized yer morals? i'm glad i already know mine, why would you plan a future, with all this violence etc involved in, that's no future, that's your path to yer miserable going nowhere lives.

Great.
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Still getting the feeling that one too many spirits won't accept the heave-ho and move on to another. Explains the pure madness, (madness, I say!) in this eccentric world, which was once peace and freedom, how dare it be taken away then mocked with lies.

"The other shape,
If shape it might be call'd, that shape had none,
Distinguishable in member, joint, or limb;
Or substance might be call'd that shadow seem'd;
For each seem'd either; black it stood as night,
Fierce as ten furies, terrible as Hell,
And shook a dreadful dart; what seem'd his head
The likeness of a kingly crown had on.
Satan was now at hand; and from his seat
The monster, moving onward, came as fast
With horrid strides; Hell trembled as he strode."
-- John Milton

my, my..

I wish I was something like in "party monster".

I love anyone who fits that description, really.

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I refuse to kneel down and accept your way of life. Who are you to tell me what I can and cannot do? So you're the only one here? You're not doing much for my welfare! You're telling me what I know. You're drawing out the big picture, I know what it is. You're trying to thill me with your own man-made wonders, I'm thrilled with my own two hands and what's always been there. It's not working. All and all, I can still have a better quarrel within my head, than with your educator. I'm sick and done with it.

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Oh, I'm talking about something else. Forget you ever read it... oh look, you don't remember.

Wonderful.

I have troubles staying still.

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I live in my own little world, i really do (head actually..) more than in this insane place, we say "the real world"

I've spent most of years, sitting up in my room, reading, thinking, whatever. It's true, I really do live in my head. I feel this world, this outside, visible world is only an illusion. What we see is what we know, am I not right? We need a look to justify a truth. If we never saw what was in front, back, side to side of us, we wouldn't think it existed. I feel seperated from it all.

"I always thought that I was more half-there than all-there - I always suspected that I was watching TV instead of living life." -warhol

I adore spending time alone. I fascinate myself. Is that a horrid thing to say?

Disorder | Rating Paranoid: Very High Schizoid: High Schizotypal: Moderate Antisocial: High Borderline: Very High Histrionic: High Narcissistic: Moderate Avoidant: Very High Dependent: Very High Obsessive-Compulsive: High