I can be bitchy sometimes but only if people deserve it. I treat people the way i am treated by them. I wont stand for people putting me down or trying to insult me when i dont deserve it and i dont think for a second i wont retaliate, i have no problems standing up for myself. I especially hate people that judge me before they even know me, people that make assumptions on who i am just because of the way i look, what music i liste too, etc...since when did that difine anyone?? My worst enemy is myself. I have struggled through a very long battle with myself trying to find peace with who i am. I went throught so much hurt and pain i coundnt even begin explain it, part of me still is and always will but the pain and hurt has made me so much stronger. What doesnt kill us makes us stronger right?? I have issues with self image, when i look in the mirror i see a monster. Im Atheist and i dont believe in any "God". I dont know and ultil i see whetever or whoever it is with my own eyes im not going to narrow my mind to one way of thinking. Instead i like to believe that we are each our own God and Godedess. I believe that we are our own sacred spirit. I dont believe in either the christian god or the devil but i think its wrong that one side is allowed to shout their opinions to the world and not the other. A lot of it is just about being able to be yourself without having moral moral repercussions. Christianity is full of hypocrites and completely self richious selfish narrow-minded people. I also believe it is wrong how parents torce religion on their children . Religion has no place in child's life, there is lofe as a child is to have fun and learn morals and respect from their parents and people around them. I get really cranky if i am woken up or interuped when im trying to sleep. I am complete hopeless romantic, i wear my hear on my sleeve completely and thats why i've been hurt in the past. I love dark romantic moments. I love being treated special and being fussed over now and again. I love getting gifts that come from the heart. Not expensive things bought from a shop that requires no thought but something special that you know has taken time and been really thought about. I've never had a song written for me but i've always wanted it, good or bad. I think candel light is the most sensual, romantic thing ever and candle light bubble baths are just amazing. I love gothic poems about love.
What I Love//
Photography- I love capturing moments with my camera. Love, hate, passion, fear, anger, lust. Memories that you might not able to keep a hold of any other way. Something, that you can look back on and with one look it brings back all the feeling that happened at the very moment. Blood- Passionate and sensual, the sight and smell of blood makes me feel things that nothing alse can. Its life! Seeing it pour out from skin gives a sense of power. Blood makes you feel alive! Kittens- I am convinced i was a cat in a former life. I have so many carecteristics that cat has. There loyal to people that show them love and effection but are indipendent and want look twise at people that dont care about them. Something about cats makes me feel at ease, strange i know but its true , i could listen to a cat's purr for hours!! Music- I couldnt live if i couldnt listen and play music it would drive me insane! Fire- So beautiful and intense, hot entransing. Water- My birth sign is scorpio, i am istinctauly drawn to water im attracted to it in a lot of ways. Despite this tho i have a fear of the ocean, a fear of being abandoned in the middle of the ocean and not knowing what underneath me. That however does not put me off. The ocean heas a power no man on earth will ever have. It could wipe us out in an isntant, it holds secrets and life that we will properly never know off. Its like and entirely different world. I love it because of its power, i fear it because of its power, i respect it because of its power! Sunsets- There beautiful, they mark the end of your day and bring is into the night which makes the world seem like on entirely new place, brings the excitiment that night holds. Sleeping- Again like a cat i could sleep forever. Dreaming- Your dreams free you from the world, give you oportunities you could never have in the real world. It fasanates me how your dreams can be so random and so terrifying yet there all made up by your own brain. Where do they come from? What do they mean? Good memories and sometimes bad- I like looking back on all the good memories in my life, they make me appreciate everything i have. Not as much as the bad memories do tho, thinking and looking back on all the bad memories, all the pain and hurt i've gone through in the past makes me realise just how amazing and sppecial what i have now is. Makes me appreciate who i have become. Other things i love : Beaches, Pink eyeshadow, Pain, Piercings, tattoos, Snuggles, Passionate and intense moments, Movies, Concerts, Corsets, World Of Warcraft, Eyeliner.
What I Hate//
Cheaters- What do people feel the need to cheat on people they are beyond me. Why people wound cheat on the people they suposedly 'love' is even more baffling. It take the lowest of low people to cheat on someone its cowardly, uforgivable or completely disguasting. People like that dont deserve to be happy cus they have no respect for other people or relationships. Liars- I know everyone lies now and again, but i'm talkin about the liars that manypulate everthing to make things good for themselves, the people that look you in the face and dilibratly lie and clearly dont give a fuck about it. Dont waste any time in your life on these people, they not worth it. Betrayal- Being let down and betrayed by people you trust is horrible, its painful and leaves veryyy deepwounds they arent easily healed. Drugs- I dont feel the need to pump my body of random god knows what just wind up passed out somewhere not knowing what fucking world im in. I like having control over my own body and mind and dont see the point in messing with it. Its stupid. Rape- People that think they have the right to touch someone elses body without there say so needs shot. There fucking scum and i would take great pleasure in torturing them. Child Abuse- It makes me so angry, i can't even begin to explain. Animal Cruetly- You know in some countries they make fur coats out of dogs and these dogs are skinned alive!!! What give us the right to think we are superior in any way. enough to murder and wear these poor fucking animals, its murderand torture, people should be punished for it. Football- I dont have anything against the sport. Proffesional football tho is boring and fuckin pointless. The biggest waste of money in the fucking world! Its redicullus!!
I can be bitchy sometimes but only if people deserve it. I treat people the way i am treated by them. I wont stand for people putting me down or trying to insult me when i dont deserve it and i dont think for a second i wont retaliate, i have no problems standing up for myself. I especially hate people that judge me before they even know me, people that make assumptions on who i am just because of the way i look, what music i liste too, etc...since when did that difine anyone?? 
