This fucking sucks I'm in el paso Texas right now well my mom wants to move to new York for some Reson probably a guy but I want to stay in el paso but no ant going to happen
im just really depressed right now im sitting around doing nothing with my life im trying to get in to job corps to see what its all about and get my g.e.d and something in something so i can get a good job and open a tattoo shop and its just so hard to do to find what i want to do and my girlfriend is not here with me to help me i burly get to talk to her anymore i haven't talked to her all night and all i can think about is if its going to last an i dont know its killing me i just want to through my hands up and give up on it i just really want to make people proud of me and its just so hard its killing me i hate it i love everyone i just want them to see me be successful in life i really wish i had a girl that could be by my side the whole way but i cant ever seem to have that it kills me i just wish life was more simple and i didnt have to go through all this and all the pain i want to make it i really do but its hard and everyone just wants to leave me on my own to do it i just dont know how well this well work ill try my best in everything but if i cant do it then i dont know what ill do only wish there was a way to know i well make it cuz i want to make my mom proud my bro proud my dad proud my step mom and the family that toke me in and cares about me to be vary proud of me and have the girl in my dreams to tell me i did a good job i want to make it in this world to be successful in every dream i have to get through the bad times and be able to live the good once to be able to get my name out there as a tattoo artist to be a vary good tattoo artist to be a good at fixing cars so when someone needs help with there car i know more about the new cars and be able to help anyone thats in need i dont charge that much like tattoos shops do for my tattoos cuz i help the people that just dont have the money to get it dont from a tattoo shop and i just really like helping people it makes me feel good but if i dont help my self get trough this and be successful then i wont be able to help people like i want i just wish i could know that i would be able to do it i just would give up everything i own to just be successful in my life it would make everyone so proud if i did good and got through all of this and be able the live the good life the life every one wish thy could have given me when i was younger i just want everyone to see a bad kid do good if i had her here with me or someone here with me that could help me through this help me from slipping away it would be so much easier then doing it on my own i love m family vary much and i know thy love me to and i know that the great people that im living with right now really care about me and i know April well be there and bobby well be there and care about me vary much even though thy ant related to me and my mom well be along with my brother he helped me get down here and did it to help me do good with my life and i hope i can do it i know its going to be hard but all i can do is try and try my hardiest and not let people bring me down anymore i love my family vary much and i know when i went up to my dads and went back to school i messed up big time and got kicked out but thats in the past i cant mess up like that again i have to make it theres no other way to do it and when i do i well have everyone to be proud of me and i can have a good life........ Mood: vary depressed
we ment at my bosses house we went to the fair and got on all the rides together things runing thorugh my mind wanting to know more about you sitting and talking for hours strate thinking to my self is there the one iv been looking for not knowing if its true i got to know you better and now we are together i started falling for you now im in love with you and i never want to let you go Mood: Happy
