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The stars aren't shining as bright as they used to, since you're no longer here to lighten up the skies and a shadow looms over me every single day, God if only I could go back, thinking so much these nights...
And my thoughts drive me to pour another drink, these regrets cause me to try and connect the links of what made you suddenly decide it was time to leave, I'll admit, that I'm still finding it all too hard to believe...
(Chorus)
They're telling me to just let go, they're saying it's not my fault there's nothing that I could of done, and to pick myself up before I fall but I don't know how the hell to do that, when all I can do is live in the past since that's the only thing I have left of you, wish I could of made it last where are you at? All these things left unsaid that I have...
Insomnia is creeping up on me, even during day images deceive due to flash backs before my eyes and a pain I'm constantly trying to fight re-living your funeral on a daily basis, everyone bowing their heads and praying saying our good byes, along with the moment I saw you for the final time...
And my thoughts drive me to pour another drink, these regrets cause me to try and connect the links of what made you suddenly decide it was time to leave, I'll admit, that I'm still finding it all too hard to believe...
(Chorus)
They're telling me to just let go, they're saying it's not my fault there's nothing that I could of done, and to pick myself up before I fall but I don't know how the hell to do that, when all I can do is live in the past since that's the only thing I have left of you, wish I could of made it last where are you at? All these things left unsaid that I have...
All these things left unsaid, words always running through my head were there any signs that I could of possibly found that would of helped me to save you from yourself...
I'm thinking back to the last words that I said to you, they were so meaningless, if I had only knew I would of told you how much you truly meant to me, and I would of rushed over to your city to see you that evening Held you in my arms and begged for you not to let go God I wish I had known, God I wish I had known...
(Chorus)
I got this open wound and its not going away, it'll never heal completely, a pain that will never fade You now have a permanent rest spot, a final place And thats where I go, sitting in silence while I try to remember every detail of your face now you're gone, and you're not coming back, I can't seem to comprehend that now all I have are these memories of the past...
Every time I hear your name, I re-act the same way and when I speak of you, it's all past-tense, I'm about to lose my mind, I know you wouldn't of wanted me to feel this way but I can't help it, always thinking of how I'll never see you again and I've been coping with your loss, these flashbacks in my thoughts by smoking ciggarettes and drinking till I start to forget but when I wake up in the morning it's back to the same old loneliness...
I got this open wound and its not going away, it'll never heal completely, a pain that will never fade You now have a permanent rest spot, a final place And thats where I go, sitting in silence while I try to remember every detail of your face now you're gone, and you're not coming back, I can't seem to comprehend that now all I have are these memories of the past...
And at night I pray, that you'll appear in my dreams telling me that you're finally okay, that you're in a good place people are telling me that I have to let go, have to move on with my life but how the hell am I supposed to do that, without you by my side without you by my side these nights, without you for eternity I never knew the true meaning of forever, can we please start over?
I got this open wound and its not going away, it'll never heal completely, a pain that will never fade You now have a permanent rest spot, a final place And thats where I go, sitting in silence while I try to remember every detail of your face now you're gone, and you're not coming back, I can't seem to comprehend that now all I have are these memories of the past...
I Will Follow You Into The Dark - Death Cab For Cutie [Cover]
May 26, 2011, 10:39:pm
My acoustic cover for "I Will Follow You Into The Dark" by Death Cab For Cutie, R.I.P. Kim April 28th, 1992 - May 10th, 2011
"I Will Follow You Into The Dark" - Death Cab For Cutie
Love of mine Someday you will die But I'll be close behind I'll follow you into the dark No blinding light or tunnels to gates of white Just our hands clasped so tight Waiting for the hint of the spark
If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark
In catholic school, as vicious as Roman rule I got my knuckles bruised by a lady in black And I held my tongue as she told me "Son fear is the heart of love" So I never went back ` If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark
You and me Have seen everything to see From Bangkok to Calgary And the soles of your shoes Are all worn down, the time for sleep is now But it's nothing to cry about 'cause we'll hold each other soon In the blackest of rooms
If heaven and hell decide that they both are satisfied Illuminate the no's on their vacancy signs If there's no one beside you when your soul embarks Then I'll follow you into the dark And I'll follow you into the dark.
Kim's candle light service I held for her at the beach
"Can't Be Real"
This can't be reality, tell me this is a nightmare and I'll jolt awake towards the end of it and you'll still be there I'll call you tonight and you'll answer with that all too familiar voice god, this is terrible, never thought pain could be so unbearable...
It's taking a toll, and you might have not even known how much I cared, how much I wish I could of been there and next time I touch your hand it'll be cold... makes me wonder, where does a good soul go? Yeah, where does a good soul go...
(Chorus)
And I'll be at your funeral, but I don't want to say a good bye cause good byes are forever, and I just can't handle that thought tonight instead I'll say,"See you later," even though it won't be for quite a while, but one day when I finally cross over, you'll be my welcoming light, and now I no longer fear to die, you've brought hope into my life...
I know you're watching from above, I know you're feeling all this love that everyone has for you, but I still can't believe that you left this soon and I'm constantly asking myself what more could I have done, why wasn't this a battle that for once I could have won...
But then I take a breath and look toward the stars, you're in a better place now, and you'll always be within my heart and I can't see you but I know you're somewhere up there still protecting me cause you have always cared, will always care...
And I'll be at your funeral, but I don't want to say a good bye cause good byes are forever, and I just can't handle that thought tonight instead I'll say,"See you later," even though it won't be for quite a while, but one day when I finally cross over, you'll be my welcoming light, and now I no longer fear to die, you've brought hope into my life...
This has been the hardest thing I've ever been through, since there are so many memories in my mind that I have of you all of the good times and all of the bad, I'm holding them closer then ever since they're all I now have, along with the pictures, it's all I now have...
And I'll be at your funeral, but I don't want to say a good bye cause good byes are forever, and I just can't handle that thought tonight instead I'll say,"See you later," even though it won't be for quite a while, but one day when I finally cross over, you'll be my welcoming light, and now I no longer fear to die, you've brought hope into my life...
