GothicAwakening

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Sometimes I think the loneliness is going to kill me, but usually it's my best friend.

About Me::

Well, I guess I'm a dark person (psychologically, not physiologically!)

I'm the kind of person who seeks out solitude over companionship.

I love storms, specially when the sky turns dark purple and the day feels like night. I don't like the sun much.

I listen to more sad songs then happy ones. My music collection consists of a lot of late 80's and 90's Gothic bands, as well as more recent stuff that might fit into that ever evolving genre.

I like blood, knives, cemeteries, crosses and all things to do with Celtic culture, druids and ancient religions.

I consider my self a goth, because of my attitude to life, to other people, to art and music and my general obsession with loneliness, solitude, death, sharp things, vampires and blood. Although I started dressing in black and listening to depressing music almost 15 years ago, it has only been in the past 5 years I have grown to understand the spiritual side of being a goth, which in turn has given me a great understanding why I like the things I do, why I listen to what I do and why I like black ;-)

I never judge people by how they look, or what music they listen to, I believe in 2nd (and 3rd, and 4th) chances. Sadly this has turned on me a few times, it seems that when you trust people, they generally stab you in the back.

Work, well, I'm a production lighting design, doing concerts, fashion shows and corporate events. You can see some of my lighting work in my gallery. My lighting homepage is here and my work homepage is here.

I wrote a new Alerter for VF, works with Linux, Windows and Mac OSX. Click the icon for more info.

Thats about all I can think of for now.

Like:

My dream girl (Sadly, I am still yet to find her):

"I see a girl with long black hair, flowing in curls past her shoulder, standing in the archway entrance to a dark castle. She is wearing a black corset and a long flowing black dress with a lace trim, and black, knee length boots. A red lace is tied around her neck, a silver band is wrapped in a spiral around her upper arm.. she holds a bouquet of red and black roses in her arms..."

Now taking applications for a girlfriend ;)

Music! My Work, Vampires, Blood, Death, Life, Ancient Cultures, Spanking, Whips, Chains, Rock Climbing, Scuba Diving, Snowboarding, Travel (Lonely Planet style, Not Condé Nast style!), Conservation, Animal Rights, Castles (The darker the better), Night, Dark Skies, Thunderstorms, The Rain, Silence, Cowgirls (don't ask..), Girls in Black, The Countryside, Empty Spaces, Derelict Buildings

Don't Like::

Fake people, specially fake / wannabe goths.

Cruelty to Animals, Cruelty to People

Music:

All About Eve, Sisters of Mercy, H.I.M, Fields of the Nephilim, The Cure, Lacuna Coil, The Gathering, Kill Hannah, The Mission (UK), Dreadful Shadows, Bloodflowerz, Bleak, My Chemical Romance, My Dying Bride, Sins of Thy Beloved, Tool, A Perfect Circle, Icon and the Black Roses, The Birthday Massacre, Depeche Mode, Esoterica, Stream of Passion... loads more, pretty much anything dark and/or depressing.

Now Playing: Girls Under Glass - Zyklus