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Well, I did not feel like doing this 5 minutes ago...but I changed my mind. My name is Annie and I think too much. I have been a member of vampirefreaks.com since Dec. 21, 2003. That is what my old account, summersdying, stated. However I recently decided to create this account since futilis is my username everywhere else. Anyway, I do realize that most of you stopped reading after the first sentence or so, but also know that I understand. My anti-contraction diction most likely bores, however it does not bother me to know that because I am writing all of this including the above for myself, not you; I guess I am just feeling expressive today. On that note, I am an artist. I define myself as an artist not based merely upon my creations, but more so on how I see the world. No, I do not have any art to show you. Why? Well that leads to another aspect of this ever-dynamic girl. I am a perfectionist, a procrastinator and general "hater" of most things I create. If it is imperfect, by my standards...I am utterly disgusted with it and myself. This does not mean that plenty of people would not enjoy it. In fact, that is where all of my creations fall...into other people's hands. There, is where I forget where this whole thing was headed.

So lately cults are the only thing I really do on here. I grew out of ratings and no one I know personally uses this site anymore; myspace has taken over the world. I enjoy this site ten times more. I mean, it's just better. Where I'm from...really does mean something to me. Don't just say, "Oh, she's just an American..." or some stupid shit like that. Yes, I am from the United States, but am far from patriotic. When I said, "where I'm from," I was referring to "where I'm from"...meaning everywhere I've been, physically and mentally. Where I am is where I stand. Actually when I first wrote "where I'm from" I was planning on going into Louisiana and the whole crazy culture...but then I thought deeper. That brings me to honesty. One value that I actually do value. And another thing, I find that I can be a natural poet. My thoughts have flow...this is part of the artist aspect of Annie. Are you okay? Anyway...I guess that's another: I have a jukebox in brain that never runs out of quarters and when unsober, it kicks into double time. Yea, unsober isn't a word I'm pretty sure...but it'd the only way I wish to describe how I currently feel; I feel childish saying "high." I feel childish saying "Hi" also which I why I generally say "Hello." I have completely lost where I was going from where I'm from. My words are meant to be deciphered in every way. So do not question what I mean...it means exactly what it seems. I believe in recreational drug use. As long as I'm alive I'm-a live illegal. Fortune cookies have something real to say. Yes, I eat cow I am not proud. Yes my last 3 sentences were lyrics...actually not the second one; that was just a random thought and I'm not sure I completely believe it either. My sub-conscience is talking again. See you for now, come back another day.

I'm the kind of girl who grows out her fingernails for a month and sharpens them to point for self-defense only to bite them off the next day. I have an unnatural obsession with Catwoman that has absolutely nothing to do with what I just said. No I am definitely not the dominatrix type either, I tend to be quite submissive in that nature. I love serial killers. Elizabeth Bathory is the closest thing I have to a God.

Aside from all that...there are several songs to which I can relate. This songs include, but are not limited to: No Rain by Blind Melon, Loser by Beck, Something I Can Never Have by NIN, Wonderful by Everclear, Lithium by Nirvana, Annie by Our Lady Peace, Garden Grove by Sublime, We're Gonna Die For Our Arrogance by Sublime, What I Got by Sublime...pretty such everything by Sublime, One Headlight by The Wallflowers, What Is and What Should Never Be by Led Zeppelin, Perhaps, Perhaps, Perhaps by Cake...I'll think of more later. Anyhow...those are my theme songs, not necessarily my favorite songs or bands.
Dax Riggs is the greatest vocalist you shall ever encounter. You should look him up one day: Song With No Name by Deadboy and the Elephantmen.