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 Maybe I should start with my username, ForYou, because in matter of fact it has no ‘importance’ and hopefully it’ll make you understand me more. You see, ladies and gentlemen, I am a hopeless romantic – put me in a relationship and I’ll fall for that man within days. As far as the long term relationships goes, I am rather terrible and I don’t understand why but maybe it’s because I am just like that. Nevertheless, I fall in love and I never fall out of love…if I have loved you once, chances are that I still love you. As far as that has to do with my username I honestly don’t know, I thought it was relatively romantic. It could also be that sense of unknowing-ness…ForYou…for who? I don’t know who this ‘you’ person is but I would like to meet him once day and in the long run my life, my heart will be for you. As far as my personality goes; I alter. My emotions are rapid, I get sad because I am not in a relationship but at the same time I get sad because I am. I feel as if I manipulate people in relationships. I feel as if I make them feel bad for any reason and it always ends in heartbreak. I’m pretty nostalgic when it comes to love but I recently came up why I am like this; I live in Zimbabwe, Africa, and in this country there are very few homosexual males especially my age (maybe one of the reason is because being gay here is illegal), so when I do find a boy that gives me affection I don’t want it to end because it’s that longing…that lust to feel what it’s like to have a normal immediate attraction to one another. I am not what else to say about me. I don’t really like going out – I have become such a hermit. I would prefer to sit at home and smoke cigarettes accompanied by a glass of red, red wine. I love wine. I love nicotine. I enjoy art in all forms, I consider myself an artist in the mediums of; drawing, painting, graphics, film, photography, writing, poetry and fashion. I believe art is more than just that though – art is how you decide to live your life like at midnight, drive to a deserted highway and lay down on the road with your favourite song…is that not art? Sure, a car may come along and drive you over and maybe it’d be called suicide but I don’t think it is you see, and even it was – wouldn’t be such a beautiful way to die? I am Atheist; I have no belief in anything. I believe that the past is something we need not to worry about – we are here on this earth to live and not continuously question where we’d go and what created us. The past is a blob and no one knows what it is made of, leave it that way because who gives a shit. If you found out that God was real what would you do? –become his disciple? I wouldn’t, I would simply say, ‘it was nice to have met you, God.’ Then you know what, life carries on – you’ll still get heartbroken, you’ll still fall in love. It’s tough. Music plays a valid part in my life and inspiration – I listen to bands such like; Bon Iver Bright Eyes Horse Feathers Iron & Wine S. Carey Justin Vernon The Middle East The Naked and Famous The Smiths The Cure …and of course that casual mainstream music. “I have buried you every place I’ve been. You keep landing up in my shaking hands.” – Bon Iver. I have a stretched ear, tongue ring, a tattoo of my fathers name on my back and a tattoo of a pink triangle on my side ribs. My name is Brett Seiler. I am seventeen. I am an artist. I am alive. |
