XxX_Nevaeh_xXx at Vampirefreaks.com [Premium Member]

About The Girl
((Hint: I rate you what you rate me))
Don't ask for my fucking MSN, YIM, or AIM unless you've actually had a conversation with me. I won't give it to you.

Let's start out simple. The name is Alicia. I'm not pretty enough. I'm not thin enough. I've got nothing going for me. I'm going nowhere with my life. I have mental problems. I have emotional problems. I'm overly sensitive. I'm annoying. I'm invisible to my family. I have few real life friends; the ones I do have are always too busy to be around me. I'm your typical internet socialite. Sleep until after noon, stay awake until the sunrises. I don't pretend to be someone I'm not. My pictures are ugly and revealing. Most people only like me because of my boobs. Go for it. Obviously I'm single, even though I like someone very much. I cry too much. I pretend to be happy in real life so that I don't have to feel as if everyone around me is laughing at me for being defeated. The truth is, however, that I AM defeated. I've been defeated, but I still won't show it. Apathy is my trademark. I couldn't show emotion in real life even if I try. Everyone always sees through the fake smiles but not deep enough to see the pain. I sound like your typical emo kid, huh? I'm far from it. I love with ALL of my heart but I'm terrified of the constant rejection so I shy away from relationships. I bitch a lot; I try not to. I'm learning to accept the fact that I'll always be different, misunderstood, and disliked. It's the way things have always been. At the same time, I remember all of the little things that people do that make me smile. Especially silly things like apologizing for bumping into me, or helping me to pick up something I dropped. For a while I held my confidence in my education and intelligence but as it seems there are far too many people that are far more intelligent than I could ever hope to be. I'm not artistic, I'm not creative, I'm not talented. I can't sing, dance, swim, drive, or initiate real life conversations. I'm pretty much useless in all aspects of life except helping people smile. I'll go to any length to see a friend of mine smile. I'm pro at sacrificing something important to me, i.e. self happiness, just so my friends get what they want and are happy. I'm a push over. I huge push over. And I'm a sucker for compliments, though I don't believe them. I get angry too easily; I get sad to easily. I attempt poetry but it's never any good. Same thing with my pictures: they're never any good. Anyway, leave a comment, or don't.
((My Pics))
((My Vids))
((My Journal))

She Adores

I get really happy when people know how to use proper grammar, though I know that I'm not perfect at it. I enjoy when a person can stimulate my mind and get me thinking. At the same time I like having fun and acting like a 5 year old child. That's one of the reasons why gay boys are one of my obsessions. They know how to let loose and have fun, something I don't yet know how to do. They'll rule the world some day with their gorgeous little stomachs which I love. It's true: I love stomachs. They make me squee and squirm when I see a cute one. I even have a ((Tummeh Collection)) to which you should contribute. I make signs in return.
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She Abhors

Seriously, if you can't spell or form a sentence correctly, do not comment me. It's one of my biggest pet peeves. As is when girls make male profiles and complain that people think they're guys. Half the guys on this site look like girls, so it's not always easy to tell. Try making a female profile? Problem solved. Then there's the matter of people that think they're so clever and tell you they rated you a 10 then give you something different. No one's going to eat your face if you say what you honestly rated. I'm PREMIUM kiddies, I can see what you rate anyway. If you don't want to tell me that you gave me a 9 instead of a 10, just don't tell me at all. I'll find out, anyway. I'm not going to attack you for it. Online drama is lame and should really stop. Getting all of your friends together to down rate someone you don't like and having them cuss the person out doesn't make you cool. Just chill, it's VampireFreaks. Oh, and on a completely different note, don't comment my pictures asking me to show you more. Some of my pictures are a little provocative, yes. That doesn't mean I'm going to go completely naked for you. What you see is what you get.

Ear Candy

Music! is not my life. However, it does make it much more fun. I have a very wide variety of musical taste but my main focus would be rock or emo and my favorite band of all time is The Used. My MP3 player doesn't have a lot of songs on it. The only bands on it are as follows: 30 Seconds to Mars, Red Jumpsuit Apparatus, Blink182, Insane Clown Posse, Twiztid, Three Days Grace, Smile Empty Soul, Aqua, and a couple others. I even think there's a Faith Hill song on there. It's a Pot Luck Musical Mix.

She Desires

Simply stated I want a lover, a best friend, who will always be there for me but won't be clingy. Someone who will understand that I'm still growing. Someone who will cherish me, who will love me for who I am. Someone who isn't going to throw me away for someone else or hurt me. I want someone who will make me rethink my conclusions that to live is to suffer, happiness is a myth. I want true love, none of this fake shit. I just want happiness.