My name is Krystle (but please call me something else. I love nicknames). I am fascinated with the character Ophelia (mad girl, misunderstood, tragic story. I want to believe she can get her revenge on all those who drove her insane. If I was a Shakespearean character, I would have been her). I am Gender Fluid (which means that I am a dynamic mixture of male and female on the inside. I am androgynous, and I am a gender-fucker). I'm an Aries (I'm on fire). I'm 22 (I'm still young but I've experienced a lot in these years). Vegetarian (I'm a lazy vegan). (Neo)Pagan/Wiccan (I believe in God, I just dance to my own drum beat). I love women (Yes, I am GAY). I am kinky (I have a dominant personality but I am a submissive. I am into BDSM). Open-minded (It takes a lot to shock me). I am Chaos&Discord. Change. I am tearing down the old and building up the new. (I am making changes in my life; if you are no longer in my life, you are but one of the many changes I have made). I am a loyal friend (once you prove yourself worthy, I am there for life- no matter what). I am a therapist (I'll listen to your problems and try to help you solve them. I care about people). I am intelligent (I read, I write, and I think too much). I have a morbid fascination with serial killers and the darker aspects of humanity and psychology (the virus of humanity is what attracted me to become a psychologist in the first place). I'm socially awkward (I'm the girl that doesn't seem to fit in right). I'm a contradiction (I'm too quiet and too loud; dominant yet submissive; controlling yet lax; morbid yet bubbly; introverted yet extroverted; polite yet abrupt; peace-maker yet battle-fighter; confident yet insecure). I am a nurturer and I want a family one day (I mother the ones I care about, and it seems to be innate). I am resilient (I've been through a lot of bullshit and pain, and in the end it made me a strong person. Think you can destroy me? Think again). I am artistic (I write, I draw, and I sing). I am a bit manic-depressive when it comes to extremes (I need to find my balance). I have trust issues ( I let people get too close, or not close enough, and I attract all the wrong people in my life). I have gone through an intense year and am currently sitting between death and reincarnation in the same life (I have loved, lost, and in the process lost my mind). I have barricades (chances are you won't break through them). I find myself only intensely, insanely attracted to the rare types of those who burn with fire under their skin like me (It's like a drug to me. I tend to fight to hold onto that connection for as long as humanly possible, even when it is no longer wise). I do have a weakness for sentimentality (you have to be special to me; the odds of that are very low). I'm usually too nice to people and I tend to care too much (but fuck me over or hurt someone I care about, and I'll be the fiercest bitch you've ever met). I hate drama (but try to start drama with me, I'll beat you at your own game. When I fight I go straight for the jugular. Sometimes the nicest girls are the most vicious). My face is easy to read (my emotions show up in my face, and my eyes tell you how I really feel. In most cases I hate it). I'm pretty laid-back and get along with pretty much everyone. If you think we'll get along, hit me up and we'll chill. =]
Reading. listening to music. hanging out with my friends. fanficton. Harry Potter. BDSM, Harry Potter fanfiction, Lesbians, Gays, Bisexuals, Transsexuals, Queers (We are all faggots and dykes, and neither and both). Gender-Fuckers (androgyny). checking out the cute girls. ;] I love to laugh (tell me a joke- it'll brighten up my day). Drawing. Singing. harmless flirting. Peace signs. Tattoos. Piercings. Kissing&cuddling. cuddle puddles. The rain (walking with my headphones on). Clairisa and I's random inbox conversations. Sarcastic comments. Witty remarks. Watching horror movies. partying it up (drinking it down). I like to dance (when nobody can see me). I like to sing (when nobody can hear me). Control (I just want to lose it). Wolves. Tigers. Poetry. Short stories. Poets. Novellas. Random moments that inspire me. Ophelia. Being a certain kind of scared. Shakespeare. Random bursts of inspiration. ?Star(light)? Scary stories. Bonfires&Campfires&Hoodies. Serial Killers (I find them fascinating to study psychologically, and to read about). Getting into intense, intelligent discussions/rants/fights. The darkest sides of humanity (they do mirror our lighter sides, and we cannot have one without the other). Walking at night. The Forbidden and the Taboo. Being unaffected by reverse psychology. KinkMan and BondageGirl to the rescue (inside joke between Requiem, MyStoneHeart, and I).
Homophobia. useless hate. judgemental people, labels, drama queens, and chat speak outside of chatrooms/IM/Texting. Players. Liars. Cheaters. Women who fuck with my head and my heart. Mind games by someone who doesn't have your best interests at heart. Mind fucks by someone who doesn't have your best interests at heart. Girlfriend-stealers. Skanks. People who think they can control me and tell me what to do. Backstabbers. Being ignored. "fat and ugly" days. Not feeling good enough. Being jealous. Chosen ignorance. I can be slightly arrogant at times (chances are if you TyP3 l1K3 th1S and sound inarticulate, you will lose my interest fast, unless you are one of the few people who are intelligent and type like that. I like intelligence, type like it). I have no issues with men (but I cannot stand men who objectify me. I am not your masturbation fodder, deal with it). I don't mind making new friends, but unless I know you well, or you have made an effort to get to know me here first I will not be handing out my messenger addresses (so if you ask and I reject you, it's for that reason).
Emilie Autumn
Evanescence
Imogen Heap
Lacuna Coil
Tori Amos
Sarah Mclachlan
t.A.T.u
Garbage
Rammstein
I like pretty much everything. I will eventually have a list. Music is my therapy and my drug of choice. This is only a small sample of my fave music.
It gives me strength to have somebody to fight for; I can never fight for myself, but, for others, I can kill.
� Emilie Autumn (The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls).
I'm not stupid. I know exactly what's going on, and I'm not fighting it. If I have to go through this, I will glean from it any small benefit I can receive. I will not fight this. Bring it on. Bring on the cure. Bring on the fucking happy. I'm committed.
� Emilie Autumn (The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls)
I am my heart�s undertaker. Daily I go and retrieve its tattered remains, place them delicately into its little coffin, and bury it in the depths of my memory, only to have to do it all again tomorrow.
� Emilie Autumn (The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls)
Awareness is the enemy of sanity, for once you hear the screaming, it never stops.
� Emilie Autumn
Just because you like it doesn't mean it's good an just cause it's good...doesn't mean you are going to like it.
-- Requiem (my friend)
You love the punishment. I love the glamor. Now you're all tied up and I've got a hammer.
-- Angelspit (Kill Kitty)
I still own my heart, which I know because it hurts so much.
� Emilie Autumn
"You," he said, "are a terribly real thing in a terribly false world, and that, I believe, is why you are in so much pain."
� Emilie Autumn (The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls)
Perfume was first created to mask the stench of foul and offensive odors... Spices and and bold flavorings were created to mask the taste of putrid and rotting meat... What then was music created for? Was it to drown out the voices of others, or the voices within ourselves? I think I know.
� Emilie Autumn (The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls)
I can explain myself: If you want to be safe, walk in the middle of the street. I�m not joking. You�ve been told to look both ways before crossing the street, and the sidewalk is your friend, right? Wrong. I�ve spent years walking sidewalks at night. I�ve looked around me when it was dark, when there were men following me, creeping out of alleyways, attempting to goad me into speaking to them and shouting obscenities at me when I wouldn�t, and I suddenly realized that the only place left to go was the middle of street. But why would I risk it? Because the odds are in my favor. In the States, someone is killed in a car accident on average every 12.5 minutes, while someone is raped on average every 2.5 minutes. Even when factoring in that, one, I am generously including ALL car-related accidents and not just those involving accidents, and two, that the vast majorities of rapes still go unreported [�] And, thus, this is now the way I live my life: out in the open, in the middle of everything, because the middle of the street is actually the safest place to walk.
� Emilie Autumn (The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls)
And, what's more, this 'precious' body, the very same that is hooted and honked at, demeaned both in daily life as well as in ever existing form of media, harassed, molested, raped, and, if all that wasn't enough, is forever poked and prodded and weighed and constantly wrong for eating too much, eating too little, a million details which all point to the solitary girl, to EVERY solitary girl, and say: Destroy yourself.
� Emilie Autumn (The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls)
I feel as though, if I were to extend my hand just a little toward the pool where the ideas ferment, I could grab at the idea and pull it out of the pool and onto the floor where ideas must stand before the jury of the brain. There, it must present itself, still from the pool, and a bit shivery because new ideas are not given a towel to dry off with, towels being reserved for proven theories; new ideas are simply pulled and stood up, and asked to explain themselves - not a very pleasant thing really, which is why so many people go into the room where the pool is. The exercise is exhausting not to mention a bit difficult to watch, if you are at all a sympathetic creature. What was my idea, anyways?
� Emilie Autumn (The Asylum for Wayward Victorian Girls)
I am a contradictory mess but I see it as my prerogative to change my mood like the weather.
-- Shirley Manson (Garbage)
I would say I'm pretty well at ease with my sexuality, but I'm an individual before I am a female.
--Shirley Manson (Garbage)
If you have any opinions at all or if you're even remotely verbal then they're going to call you fiery.
--Shirley Manson (Garbage)
Some people are afraid of what they might find if they try to analyze themselves too much, but you have to crawl into your wounds to discover where your fears are. Once the bleeding starts, the cleansing can begin.
--Tori Amos
I think all the boys that write the screaming stuff would write the best love songs.... because they have the most to hide. The guys that are in the most pain are usually the ones with the biggest hearts.
--Tori Amos
The violence between women is unbelievable. Women try to make each other crawl so that their knees are bleeding.
--Tori Amos
Many people lock a part of themselves away. It`s a bit sacred.
--Tori Amos
I usually get myself into situations that cause sparks. I mean I`m a girl that likes the storms. I love feeling alive, I love walking out in the cold in my bare feet and feeling the ice on my toes.
--Tori Amos
I think you have to know who you are. Get to know the monster that lives in your soul, dive deep into your soul and explore it.
--Tori Amos
Healing takes courage, and we all have courage, even if we have to dig a little to find it.
--Tori Amos
Give me life, give me pain, give me myself again.
--Tori Amos
I wrote about being really jealous, I�m talking intense jealousy, jealousy that I had never felt before. The thing that I loved about the chorus in that song is that �I can�t even work� it�s like I�m exasperated with myself. I was like disabled by it. I was jealous of what I didn�t have, what I used to have, what I wanted to have, and at that particular time I was sort of half-dating someone who was in a relationship, so it was an affair. It was a weird triangle of people and then my ex-girlfriend started dating this guy and then I felt [worse], and then he felt jealous, and it was just like �fuck!� and I was just consumed.
--Tegan Quin (from Tegan and Sara) [I'm sure this is her---please correct me if I am wrong].
When Sara�s singing about laying in bed with a pile of books between her and her girlfriend, that hurts. Whereas I�m like, �Screw you.� I�ve got all the teenagers in the audience, with songs like �Nineteen,� �Hop A Plane,� �Speak Slow.� But �Floor Plan� comes on, and Sara�s singing about wanting her partner�s lungs to stop working without her, and that�s where the depth in our music is really at. I think that balance in our songwriting is what distinguishes us.
--Tegan Quin (from Tegan and Sara)
We take it so seriously when people don�t like us or when they say they can�t relate to us. I�m like, �How can you not relate to us? We�re like hearts on a sleeve. How can you not relate to the human condition, you fucking asshole?
--Tegan Quin from (Tegan and Sara) [I'm sure this is her--- please correct me if I am wrong].
You say you want to know her like a lover And undo her damage, she'll be new again Soon you'll find that if you try to save her It will renews her anger You will never win.
--The Pierces (Three Wishes)
Things change. People change. You. Me. Every one of us... Every day of our lives. The day ya stop changin'... is the day ya die.
-- Wolverine (X-men)
Failure is unimportant. It takes courage to make a fool of yourself.
--Charlie Chapman
The greatest danger for most of us is not that our aim is too high and we miss it, but that it is too low and we reach it.
--Michelangelo
It's impossible to live without failing at something, unless you live so cautiously that you are hardly living at all.
-- J. K. Rowling
Resentment is like drinking poison and waiting for the other person to die.
-- Carrie Fisher
Quinn: Ms. Sylvester, I want to thank you. Sue: For what? Quinn:For teaching me a valuable life lesson. When you really believe in yourself you don't have to bring other people down.
—Acafellas, "Glee"
Ladies, you have to be the shit to you, stop waiting on a man to verify whether you're the shit or not. We're tired of y'all blaming all your problems on us. Stop tellin' men,"You fucked up my self-esteem". Bitch, it's called SELF-ESTEEM! It's esteem of your SELF. How am I gonna fuck up how you feel about YOU?
--Katt Williams
Don't be so humble - you are not that great.
-- Golda Meir to a visiting diplomat
Your heart will always skip a beat, whenever you, as a writer, manage to drag someone into your universe, and eat them there
- Russian fanfic author, Levian
Not everything that can be counted counts, and not everything that counts can be counted.
-- Albert Einstein
So long as you write what you wish to write, that is all that matters; and whether it matters for ages or only for hours, nobody can say. But to sacrifice a hair of the head of your vision, a shade of its colour, in deference to some Headmaster with a silver pot in his hand or to some professor with a measuring-rod up his sleeve, is the most abject treachery.
--Virginia Woolf
'Cause good old days weren't always good, and tomorrow isn't as bad as it seems.
--Billy Joel, "Keeping the Faith"
In the deepest hour of the night, confess to yourself that you would die if you were forbidden to write. And look deep into your heart, where it spreads it's roots, the answer, and ask yourself, must I write?
-- Ranier Marie Rilke
You are my friend when you can guard my failure, challenge my thought, and celebrate my success.
-- Unknown
Nothing in the world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan, 'press on' has solved, and always will solve, the problems of the human race.
--Calvin Coolidge
Dream as if you'll live forever, live as if you'll die today
- James Dean
It is worth mentioning, for future reference, that the creative power which bubbles so pleasantly in beginning a new book quiets down after a time, and one goes on more steadily. Doubts creep in. Then one becomes resigned. Determination not to give in, and the sense of an impending shape keep one at it more than anything.
--Virginia Woolf
The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy.
--Martin Luther King, Jr.
Did you know that the first Matrix was designed to be a perfect human world? Where none suffered, where everyone would be happy. It was a disaster. No one would accept the program. Entire crops were lost. Some believed we lacked the programming language to describe your perfect world. But I believe that, as a species, human beings define their reality through suffering and misery. The perfect world was a dream that your primitive cerebrum kept trying to wake up from...
-Agent Smith, "The Matrix"
Well behaved women rarely make history.
--Laurel Thatcher Ulrich
Our greatest fear is not that we are inadequate, but that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness, that frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant,gorgeous, handsome, talented and fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be?
-Marianne Williamson
Sometimes, I feel discriminated against, but it does not make me angry. It merely astonishes me. How can any deny themselves the pleasure of my company? It's beyond me.
-- Zora Neale Hurston
The most important thing I teach my kids is that you can’t put your value in looks. Presence is based upon magnitude. You can pretend to have an air about you but it is quickly deflated, but you cannot deflate presence. Presence walks into a room and surrounds and fills anything that’s in that room without trying to demand it, it takes it. It can come from a smile. Like I said, love makes you beautiful. What is beautiful radiates.
-Terrence Howard
We could have saved the Earth but we were too damned cheap.
--Kurt Vonnegut
Those who can make you believe absurdities can make you commit atrocities
--Voltaire
Fiction reveals truth that reality obscures.
--Emerson
People seem not to see that their opinion of the world is also a confession of character.
--Emerson
You know that when I hate you, it is because I love you to a point of passion that unhinges my soul.
--Julie de Lespinasse
Stay with me, love. You wanted this. Remember. Now I’m going to break you so that you’ll only work for me. Sweat for me. Scream for me. Come for me.
said Harry to Draco in Political Axes by rettavex
Don't write checks your ass can't cash when you challenge me, Jubilation.
Said Wolverine to Jubilee in Canadian Whiskey by darkangelaryannrhod
Nothing is easier than self-deceit. For what each man wishes, that he also believes is true.
-Demosthemes
You need chaos in your soul to give birth to a dancing star.
-Nietzsche
Absolute power corrupts absolutely.
-Lord Action
You must be the change you want to see in the world.
-Gandhi
"I was stressed/over-scheduled/manic/no- depressed/no- in need of attention/no- in need of discipline/in need of rest/in need/your fault/your fault/fault/fault. They branded their war on this tiny skin-bag of a girl."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 9)
"There is no safer. There's not even a safe, never has been."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 16)
"...When I was a real girl, my mother fed me her glass dreams one spoonful at a time."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 16)
"If I run or breathe too deep, the cheap stitches holding me together will snap, and all the stickiness inside will pour out and burn through the concrete."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 19)
"She offered herself to the big, bad wolf and didn't scream when he took the first bite."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 22)
"The sentences [of the book] build a fence around her, a Times Roman 10-point barricade, to keep thorny voices in her head from getting too close."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 33)
"But a daughter who opens her own skin bag, wanting to her shell fall to the ground so she can dance? That was just sick. No cutting[...] Not under Daddy's roof. Bottom line. Deal breaker."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 61)
"The break-up with my mother was the same old story told a million times. Girl is born, girl learns to talk and walk, girl mispronounces words and falls down. Over and over again [...Girl] fails adolescence, mother washes her hands of Girl, scrubbing with surgical soap and a brush for three full minutes, before handing her over to specialists and telling them to experiment at will. When they let her out, Girl rebels."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 68)
"I'm the girl who trips on the dance floor and can't find her way to the exit. All eyes on me."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 78)
"I am supposed to pray, I think. I can never tell with moments of silence. They're so...silent. Empty."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 79)
"[...]He would have adjusted my meds again, one pill to make my self-of-steam larger, another to make my craziness small."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 82)
"I knew what he wanted to hear. He couldn't stand me being sick. Nobody can. They only want to hear that you're healing, you're in recovery, taking it one day at a time. If you're locked into sick, you should stop wasting their time and just get dead."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 83)
"Nothing works nothing ever works it just keeps killing me from the inside."
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 103)
"Hundreds and hundreds and hundreds and hundreds of strange little girls screaming through their fingers"
-Lia from wintergirls by Laurie Halse Anderson (Pg 112)
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