October 20, 2008, 05:45:am (c) My Blogpost Gosh,It feels like a few years passed after my last blogpost So many things have changed and so many are still the same I even dunno from what should I start here Sometimes it seems to me that I've become another person haha but Im still a bitch,dont worry. lol idk why am i writing this shit,it's 5 am here already and it seems that I should fall asleep,but wtf? what kind of jerk is sleeping at this time? lol nah,my 'normal' day starts around 11am-2pm and ends at 4-6 am too much time is waisted anyway =_= so well,I'm writing a book now have ALOT of inspiration and thoughts in my head,so why not? yeah and maybe it will be even publeshed soon, so if it will I can send ya one for Christmas lol my life is full of fucking trips and tips lol allmost every weekend I'm in some other citys or on the partys or on shoots im sooo sick of it all sometimes im sick of words like "gosh i wanna be like her and blah blah" no ppl,belive me its fucking not cool to be me haha but well sometimes it is. you know what I love most of all? FREEDOM yeah,I have ALOT ppl around,but I dont need them i dont need friends,parents,boyfriends not a fucking person things I love are : my ps,my cigarettes ( I love every single of you ^_^ ) , ecstasy ( yeah babe xD ) , books, my JOB , music , speed and good whiskey sometimes and haha yeah i forgot about my laptop and fast-fooods xD gosh i just cant live without this shit lol and you know what the funnyest thing is? I dont need all those things either I have a terrible headache right now and fucking nightmares every night i dont wanna sleep much coz of that,but well,its not the only reason haha I've changed allmost all ppl around in like 2 month TOTALY another life and you know what? I like it it was my lvl up btw Im one of the suicide girls now i just dont care much and nope,it wont brake my model career you know why? coz Im one of the best here and would be everywhere soon haha nope Im not drunk now and I dont give a shit why am I writing this all uhmmmm maybe Im just bored haha Im sick of playing Lineage 2 already, gonna find some other online game to play I wanna make my own music project,have many friends who are working on studios to help me and many bands that would help too also maybe gonna make a few gigs for some foreign bands haha and also I need to start going to my university, coz it seems like its the only place I dont have time for all my enerdgy goes to weekends and I dont have strance to go anywhere other days lol I made sooo much mistakes in this huge post it seems that i cant shut up at all lol kk its all for now i'll try to write more if i will have time and wont be such an lazyass haha bye bye lotz of love and acid your Rashel P.S.: I will continue to belive in my one and only true feeling I want to show you I can still protect it inside me, despite all my difficulties I want to keep our promise, because you are irreplaceable In this world full of doubt The answer still hasn't been found Why can I still go on? It's because reality is so much like a dream And if I can change it with my own hands I will continue to belive in my one and only true feeling I want to show you I can still protect it inside me, despite all my difficulties For my irreplaceable someone I swear to the sound of this crushing waves That I'll continue running until I burn out By surviving I can feel this promise I want to keep Within your eternal love Likes: - freedom - play station - Parliament light cigarettes - syntetic drugs - books - to write - inspiration - my job - music - speed - alcohol - parties - go to sleep when it's sunrise - traveling - candies - my laptop - smoke - online games - raves - to write things like "wtf", "haha" and "lol" - fast-foods - coca-cola - to make presents - glow stick - philosophy, nuclear physics and genetics - my cat Darek - milkshakes - sunglasses Dislikes: - fakes beware of my ones my real profiles have name Rashel or Rashel Rei If you'll see more of my fakes plz let me know - liers - lame comments - stupid ppl - steps behind my back - many people around - chips - cinema - trash - dogs - when ppl remind me about my mistakes - birthday partys - weakness - interesting ppl that speak other languages ( coz its hard for me to talk with them ) my native languages are ukrainian and russian so as you can see my english sux - religios ppl - government - my home - bright light Favorite Music: - 8 bit - psy trance - dnb - breakcore - j rock - j pop - industrial - synthpop - dark wave - IDM - EBM - emo - post punk - gothic - reggae - ragga jungle - ska punk - electronic and many more Link 1: http://rashel-ua.deviantart.com Link 2: http://nocturnalmodels.com/models/rashel Link 3: http://suicidegirls.com/girls/Rashel
