About Me

If you aren't very observant, then I'll tell you that my name is Katrina Lea. You may call me Katrina Lea, Katrina, Katiee, or Cid, which is my personal preference. I first inhaled the toxins of the earth's air on October 30th, of 19 something or other, and I've survived this long.

SLUT-FREE. Self-respect first; sexy second. I figured I should clear that up. No, I won't go on cam for you. No, I won't trade photos with you. No, I don't want to see your raunchy, hairy, less-than-impressive genitals. No, I don't want to help you get off. Yes, I've seen much better. Yes, I'll report you. Try getting some real action instead of wackin' it to photos/videos of people you'll probably never meet. ♥

For the most part, I'm a very sarcastic, snarky person. And I tend to overuse the word "fuck". A lot. However, I am a very sweet girl and I enjoy being nice to people. I sing much more than I talk, and I couldn't imagine my life without a voice. As for material items? I could lose everything that I own and still be completely content with my life. I find more use and value in things that cannot be possessed.

I find it hard to describe myself using only one term, because I'm constantly changing. But something very important to know, is that I will never change for anyone but myself. So don't bother trying, thank you. I can be very stubborn, but I'm incredibly open-minded; [A mind is like a parachute; it only works when it's open.] I value knowledge. I have a lot to teach the world, but much more to learn.

What is so unique about you, Katiee Rainbow?
I can't tell you how many times I've been asked this question. I guess I'd say one aspect of my personality that sticks out would be my "condition", which is Color Synesthesia. It somewhat relates back to my love for colors, and especially rainbows. I am different from the rest of the people on this planet, but it's up to you to find out how.

In Depth

Here's a little bit of background before the story begins...

I grew up around the same area I was born, with my big brother Nick. My alcoholic father left us when I was 2 years old, but it's probably best that he wasn't around much. Our mom was single, working 3 jobs so we could keep our home, and food in our mouths. We got by just fine. For a very long time, Nick was my best and only friend.

At three years old, I fell into a depression like my mother said she had never seen, and I still haven't completely shaken it. I allowed myself to fall victim to the pathetic impulses that gnawed at the back of my brain. Many times, I was hospitalized for what I allowed to happen to myself. I'm not proud of any of those decisions. Before I die, I plan to establish a foundation for anorexia and bulimia.

[If the disease itself does not kill you, then it will live with you forever until you die.]

I'm a lot different from who I used to be--hateful, antisocial, miserable.. I've learned a lot from my past, but who hasn't? I feel as if I become a better person by the day, and I don't regret leaving behind any remnants of the monster that I used to be. People who haven't seen me in years probably wouldn't recognize me; I've worked hard to evolve from my old myself. So who exactly am I now?

I'm a loud, fun-loving, outspoken person. I am and will always be a juggalo. If you feel that you can judge me because of that, then it's your loss, not mine. I'm not on this site to please anybody. If you're looking for an ass-kissing, then it would behoove you to navigate away from my page. But if you're still interested, I encourage you to continue reading.

I almost always have my head in the clouds, because sometimes my imagination is a much better place to be. That doesn't mean I'm not tapped in to reality, it just means that I don't particularly like to be. Most of the time, I'm dreaming of the life I'm planning ahead of me, and where I want to end up being. But I also enjoy dreaming of what it would be like to fly; what would it be like to escape so easily?

For the most part, I'm happy with the life I'm living. I very much enjoy raving--not for the sake of following the crowd, but because I very strongly believe in, and follow, P.L.U.R. I do a number of things that may be frowned upon, such as drinking, smoking, partying, and frequently using drugs. But it's called my life for a reason. I live it to the fullest as much as I can--regret-free. Life is too short not to.

I'm a vegetarian, a lover, a misanthrope, a dreamer, a believer, an optimist; a raver, a gamer, a singer, an actress, an artist, a proud high school graduate. I try to be inspired by my own self and create my own persona, though if you ask me who I am, I'm not sure I could give you a complete answer just yet. I view the search for myself as a journey that I may be on for the rest of my life, but I definitely plan to enjoy the ride.

Facts

Number One

More often than not, you'll find me singing along to my favorite songs at the top of my lungs.

Number Two

It is exceedingly difficult to get me to give up on something I want.

Number Three

It's easy for me to find beauty in the least attractive things.

Number Four

I'm a horrible dancer.

Number Five

I'm "good" at a lot of things, but have no real talent.

Number Six

Anger is one emotion that I don't know how to feel.

Number Seven

I'm not a "careless" person, but I'm very carefree. Know the difference.

Number Eight

Appearances mean nothing to me; if I like you, I like you for who you are.

Number Nine

I always forgive; I never forget.

Number Ten

I firmly believe that the life I've been living is not my own, but a dream of somebody else's.

Number Eleven

I've yet to tell my family that I like girls.

Number Twelve

I'm almost never caught without coffee or chai tea in my left hand.

Number Thirteen

My mom, Aunt Lanette, and Grandma Louise are my only heroes.

Number Fourteen

When I was younger, I wanted to be an undercover vampire working as a tightrope walker in a circus.

Number Fifteen

The words "I love you" hold very little meaning to me anymore.

Number Sixteen

I'm painfully short and try to make up for it by wearing 6-inch platform boots. A lot.

Number Seventeen

I'm fully aware that I'm far from being a perfect 10, but I know there's a lot to like about me.

Number Eighteen

Smiles are one of my favorite things in the world.

Number Nineteen

I've had insomnia since I was two years old; ironically enough, that's how old I was when my father left us.

Number Twenty

If I could sleep all day and lose myself in my dreams, I would love nothing more.

Dislikes

Boring messages

If you're going to strike up a conversation with me, at least try to be interesting, please. I don't usually enjoy pointless chatter. Repetition bores me immensely.

Green beans

By far the most vile vegetable in existence.

Easy video games

I neeeeeeeeed a challenge! Older games were so much more complex and required more time and thought.

My lack of self-esteem some days

Once in a while, I hit rock bottom and can't climb back up.

Mind games

Just be straight with me. It's much easier.

Slow walkers

Get the fuuuuuuuck out of my way, please!

Being woken up

It's enough of a task for me to actually fall asleep and stay asleep; SO LET ME.

Ignorance

Read a fucking book instead of allowing yourself to be so stupid. It really is that simple.

Improper grammar

Stated above.

Liars

I see right through you.

Commercials

It seems that they always come on at the most inconvenient of times!

Violence

It really doesn't fucking solve anything.

The majority of the little "scene" girls

For the most part, you just look like a suicidal hooker that doesn't know the meaning of a "hair brush".

Being yelled at

I don't hear anyone who yells at me, because I'm too focused on how ugly and red their face looks.

[Americans] who don't support their troops

Though I don't agree with the war, I have absolutely no reason not to support the troops who are fighting for our country. It doesn't make you look like a "total badass" to be running around screaming "Fuck the war! Fuck our soldiers!" You just look like an ignorant, ungrateful piece of shit. If it was you or one of your loved ones over there fighting, I'm sure it would be a completely different story, hmm?

People

Mom&Dad
Mother; you're a pain in my ass, but I wouldn't trade you for any mom on this planet. You've supported me and loved me for so long. Dad; you're more of a dad to me than my biological father, and you never even had to be. ♥

Aunt Lanette
You have inspired and strengthened me so incredibly much. A lot of who I am is thanks to you. I can't express how much we all miss you. Nobody on the planet could ever replace you. May you forever rest in the sweetest peace.

Felicia
My best friend. You have given so much to me, and I feel like I owe you everything. You have helped me see the beauty in things. You are the reason that I haven't [and won't] give up. I would be nothing and no one without you.

Amber Lanette
You're my sunshine. You're the reason I've changed my mind about having children. I love seeing your bright, smiling little face. You're the cutest baby in the world; you always keep me going. I'm going to cry when you grow up.

Mickey
My heart and soul. You alone are the reason I haven't given up on the human race. You're the first person I run to in times of need, and the last person that I think of before bed. I'd love nothing more than to keep you forever.

Nathan
The designer of this wonderful layout! And an incredible friend to me. You're so intelligent; talking to you is like breathing in my first breath of air. I could never get tired of you. And I much appreciate all that you do for me.

Becca
You're one of the sweetest, most gorgeous, down-to-earth girls that I know. You always have a way with making me happy. It kills me when you're sad; I wish I could make it all go away, like you do for me. I Love you to no end.

BryBry
Ohh, the shit you and I have gone through together. You are such a genuine person, and I've always loved having you in my life. If I was ever comfortable, it was when I was talking to you. I never want to lose you ever again.

Demetri
You drive me absolutely crazy sometimes. Most of the time, we're arguing about something stupid. But at the end of the day, you're always there for me. You've got a heart the size of the sun. Thank you for being there.