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Taking in one's self is different than taking in that of yourself. To think of this you must think deeply.
For, when you take in one's self, you become one, whole, faultless of the sort.
You will know yourself and that of your surroundings.
At least to a better development that if you were to take in yourself.
'Cause, to only take in "yourself" you are usually taking only what are your faults than that of your strengths.
You want to take both and better them both. That is what you truly wish, well, I'd only hope so.

My name is Erika and I am a ~~girl~~ woman that has much to say though is too scared to act upon them. Many have said to shut up and listen. They say "Erika, you have much to say and it could/will help us all in the end." I never choose to listen for again, that fear within me takes me away from all my hopes and dreams. The reason I fear all this is because I know the truth about this god forsaken world. I know it's ups and downs. I know it's faults and perfections. Hell, I know more than some could imagine. It's amazing sometimes to me when I know that all will fail, all will wipe-out, almost like how I know I am being overly redundant right now.

People in all just shock the living hell out of me. They are filthy, lying, cheating, suicidal, psycho beings. I do despise the human race for every act left on earth. Give us an amendment and what do we do, lie and cheat our way around it. All over the years. Give us independence but lie and cheat to take everything from us. Though back to the amendments, I must say, out of the constitution that is always vaguely misguided is the first one of them all. Freedom of press, speech, and religion. We get cheated of this everyday. Some do take it out of proportion though, no matter how disrespectful or odd it is, we still have it. Why take it? Only because it is hurting your popularity? Taking away your chances of something you want? Well, then that is just being down right selfish, don't you think?

I, Erika, am also a woman that no one would truly understand. For I am not all that normal. Far from, actually. I am sadistic, very much so. I laugh at gore, smile at screams, think of schemes. Many will shake their head and not believe me...no, Erika can not be like such a creature. Erika can not be like that. She is just a normal girl...like the rest of us.

When I heard that Hostel was a "gory" movie I was like "SWEET! Alright!" hah...that was the last of that. All I got out of that was sex and then slight gore. Oh, we'll take off his toe then later on this chick's eye will be cut from the socket...Woohoo [sarcasm attack] Well, I am one that wants the adrenaline of death, excitement of a kill, the thrill of a struggle. It all is interesting to me. To see how the mind and body work's of everybody. Why they scramble, why they believe it hurts, so on. It intrigues me.