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MsWednesdayGrotesque
"To love is to risk not being loved in return. To hope is to risk pain. To try is to risk failure, but risk must be taken because the greatest hazard in life is to risk nothing."
Status: <3 "I'm not the one that you want, not the one that you need, My love is like a fucking disease, You can give me your hand, you can make your demands, I'm the hardest motherfucker to please" <3 [View Updates]
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Latest Journal Entry: new cell number May 08, 2012, 05:35pm
Profile:  Name: MsGrotesqueAge: [7.12.91]Sex: Female (Rhetorical)Hometown: Trussville, AlabamaLocation: My Brand New HellSexual Orientation: StraightMarital Status: Taken By Mr. AmazingOccupation: Full Time Metal Mum   To sum up everything about me as of August 5th 2010, I became a full time Metal Mum of a very amazing little boy who goes by the name of Randy Zakkariah Gage! He is the reason I breathe as well as my world. The one sole thing Ive ever felt I have done right by my entire life. He is the one thing out of my life that keeps me grounded, content, and happy. He is the most important and influential thing in my life and he is what keeps me going. For those whom don't know I am a single parent. If you can't comprehend what that is well Ill make it simple for you --I am both parents Mommy & Daddy. Because there is a point in our lives when we wake up and smell the coffee, and most of the time when you finally smell that coffee you think ----"Damn that is some STRONG fucking shit." && well for me it happened to myself & my supposed best friend at the time. I chose to keep our baby, he demanded I abort it. Life goes on, my son & I are doing good and things all work themselves out in the end. Now, we have an amazing little boy together who goes by the name, Gage. I have learned as you walk out on a person forever and never look back, by the time they have realized your gone, you have already turned over a new leaf. When it happens, people begin to see that the new you over powers everything and the old you is not yet broken. Sure, the path I chose as well as the trail I have lead to pave means growing up fast but you live & you learn, life is all about some trial and error shit anyways so it seems. Being a mother means you have to think once for yourself and once for your child. I first thought Why me?, than I thought well hell we are just better without him. I have owned the title "Mommy" now, for 6 months and I have learned when life sends you a curve ball, make sure to knock that mother fucker out of the fucking park, because otherwise your not going to make it as a dreamer thinking about all those times you could have hit one hell of a home run. Well lets just say this time around I finally got my hit for my own home run, I have found a better purpose in life and that home run I dont regret for a split millisecond he is my beautiful amazing little boy. I am proud of myself, and have established so much being a mom, despite its daily ass kicking's. I think Ill survive? Okay, due to contrary belief I am tougher than what most give me credit for. I am not just your any average ordinary girl or woman. I am able to change, So I live without regret, without remorse, I am but only a remix. Something I hate more then anything is Prejudice and fascist mother fuckers, you dont define me, ---I define me. I can handle myself with the best of you, As well as the worst. Although seems I often have. I'm simple, but complicated all rolled into one. I can be your best friend or your worst enemy, other wise I'm pretty fucking nice, but I can also be a real Sometimes what I have to say is rather hard for some people to swallow. I'm wise beyond my years. I'm the most stubborn person you'll ever meet. However, you need to learn that when I dig myself a fucking grave, I lye in it for better or for worse .I have bad mood swings sometimes but I have my good days and my bad days, just like everybody else. I am a really sensitive person, which gets me in trouble a lot of the time. I have a huge heart and sometimes I think that is my biggest flaw.I tend to have this thing where I try to see all the good in people even when I know the worst about them. I am a person who is no matter what always stuck inside her own head. I'm pretty smart, but I have been known to do some pretty stupid shit. I don't trust very easily, I only trust those I am very much truly close to other wise I keep to myself. I've learned to let go of grudges, unless you've done something fucked up and terrible to me. If that's the case, you're shit out of luck, I have nothing for you. It gets old knowing people and than they turn around and do the unthinkable. When people never cease to fucking amaze me, I think the world will be more at peace. I have the right to remain silent, but I choose to speak. Don't bother trying to censor me or shut me up, because it will never work. I've always been one to speak my mind, and not care what anybody or other people thinks. I've lived, I've learned, I've loved, I've lost. And I'm still here. I can be a real open person at times. I am really shy with people I meet, not so open as far as society goes. I don't care what you think about me. I'm not pretty, but I'm not ugly. I'm not fat, but I'm not skinny. No; I'm not your average typical beauty queen. I'm not made of plastic, I have my own mind. I'm not a size 0' but nor am I a walking skeleton. I don't care who knows it. For those whom mind dont matter, and for those who do know me love me. See I am me, and I know exactly Who I am, What I am and the wrath I bring. The ugly beauty, The lying truth, The virgin whore, The quiet storm. I am; A lover, A fighter, A saint, A sinner, A sister, A daughter, A Mother, Old school, A beginner. I have decorated myself with love, Hate, Truth, You & More than one of you. Yahoo: TheMsGrotesqueClick Here For My ArtLikes: Dislikes: Favorite Music:
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