My first act of treason was picking up a pen, my first act of love was finding myself again
Status: Trying to finish up my college entry essay then scholarship paperwork.
Sex: female Age: 18 Location: Filling your void, Medford,
Oregon, United States
Member since: March 16, 2007 Account: Free Account Buddies with:girlgerms Buddies with:AislinnAsphyxiate Best Friends with:vampirateninja Occupation: Student/Writer
Feeling attached to my body or let alone my name is something I have yet to experience so bare with me. You want to know my name? Fuck you grammar nazis, I'm busy and you're more than welcome to edit this for me. ^^ Try talking to me and I just might tell you my name. The following you're about to read is unorganized and quite factual, only through confrontation can you make truth of my words.[I LOVE making new friends.]I'm a proud nicotine-free individual, but it has taken me three years to get here...I'm always willing to be a support line for anyone with difficult addictions they wish to break. [Strength through unity,...your body will thank you.] Humor is a great tool for easing social situations, however I don't find it funny when people put that in place of their insecurities...in fact that offends me. A forewarning for those who are offset by my Bipolar Disorder and the spiral that follows shortly after, I don't always mean the harsh things I say. I truly would rather love on any occasion than bring heartbreak. People who can hold conversations, intellectual or not, will peak my interest because more often than not those who cannot speak don't deserve to be spoken to. Trust me I'm more than willing to earn a person's trust if they're willing to be real with me. STATUS:My heart is beating, taken, and a little tattered at the moment. My only crime has been loving far too much and expecting the same in return. I'm omnisexual and quite proud, if you're oblivious to what it is by all means look it up. If you feel so inclined, do try to read my emotions through my eyes, I won't hide them. I rather enjoy those people who slap labels on me, it adds flavor to the one that was never there. Slowly I'm submersing myself in the subculture of electronic music and all that follows along with it. I love the aesthetic comforts that this life gives me each and every day and I never hesitate to share my joy with those around me. ...is she a narcissistic? Not quite, I'm just defensive and if I take the time to tell you I like something it generally means I thoroughly do, so don't question whether I crave the ideals of someone else or not. Humor me with how original you think I am because I choose to elaborate on my networking page, *rolls eyes* in all honesty its just summing up what can't be said face to face for those who aren't here to speak with me. I'm a compassionate person, who loves to listen, but if you are in need of advice I'm always there for that too. I cannot/will not let my guard down to just anyone you must earn it. Like just about anyone you'll find in life I've loved and lost far too many times by trusting those who don't deserve it, but at least my conscience is clear because I had the sincerity to give the benefit of the doubt. I ride horses, play bass guitar, xbox, hardstyle shuffle, poi,and write poetry.I plan to finish up high school and jump start my college education to double major in biology and veterinary medicine.If you you share my hobbies/interests I encourage you to contact me. If you're still hanging on after reading all of this thanks are in order. I pride myself in communicating in more-formal English, there are acceptions for those who are from other countries and contact me, but don't send me bullshit comments trying to be "cute" it's annoying and I will most likely insult you and you'll be offended...better yet I might even enjoy that you were so easily offended.
I dream to someday mix electronic music, however programs and equipment to do so are far out of my financial reach so if anyone is willing to help in anyway you will be my god-send. Secondary dream would be to get my poetry published in a paper copy book with an accomplice to make art that depicts my words. IF you've made it this far in reading my profile by all means continue, if you're some kid (or 'god' forbid) adult who thinks they're hot shit because they've mastered photoshop, or happen to be excessively literate on a silly site like this, OR even petty scene-kids, pompous premiums or sexually confused preteens,...please do me a favor and leave my page. The rest of it doesn't and shouldn't concern you.
Yes, I have msn, and a webcam...doesn't mean I'll send "n00dz" or strip because I have the beauty-brains package. If I ask you to cam its because I genuinely enjoy proper cam chat, however lately I haven't been able to get on msn and keep in touch with friends because as we all know...life happens.
Although I'm not new to Vampire Freaks I thought it was time for a fresh start.Of course,there is no reason for me to sum up my actual state of being or so called (me) so I'll brief it and if you want to know anymore, feel free to ask.
On a different note,I would rather not discuss religions with people because to me it does not matter, I admire views from all. I have an eccentric fascination with anatomy! I have a background of jazz and blues but would enjoy getting into metal/orchestral styles of bass guitar playing. ADD & RATE accordingly. (:
oh...and...
CONGRATULATIONS YOU CAN READ!
Likes
Alright down to simplistics of what I like; horror movies, techno[hardstyle, happy hardcore, electro mainly], making/giving rave kandi, my 1970 Thunderbird, pills, opiates, playing bass,spending time with my horse, anatomy, fetishes, boots, sarcasm, brutal honesty,vodka,vintage car shows, mugwort, blogging, appreciation for the arbitrarily beautiful things in life, DDR, photography, texting, free writing, going to concerts, shuffling, poi, mixing techno, Gears of War 1 & 2, Half Life 2: Orange Box,Oblivion, helping the needy, and without a doubt the rarity of a genuine person. Through and through they must be beautiful otherwise its not likely I'll look twice.
Dislikes
Things I don't favor.... Aliens, my lack of free-time and love, indecisiveness,unnecessary perversion, simple minded people, scene kids,abandonment [even though its been an obstacle I've faced one too many times], people without layers, animal abuse, being an emotional rag doll, intravenous needles, unmotivated people, leeches, being unmedicated, life without passion, being underestimated,uninteresting people, foot/fecal fetishes, people who ask for nudes, and people who are always craving structure in a world with so many rules to bend. My list may be long and semi-strict, but everyone has their quirks and I'm very open minded...talk to me, I dare you. :D
Favorite Music
HARDSTYLE!! (Not going to lie though, I still enjoy some psychobilly/black metal/ thrash metal/ industrial/ indie/ jazz/swing/and celtic from time to time!) I'm probably going to delete the list of bands below, my taste and love of music has become so extensive I cannot continue it.
As far as Electronic music I may like I don't feel its worth the time to list ALL, so here are the more rock/alternative/psychobilly genres I like: Korn,Rammstein,Marilyn Manson,Rob Zombie,Horrorpops, Gutter Demons, CANCERSLUG, DUALPROFORM,Sensuous Enemy, Sarah Jezebel Deva,Maria in the Shower, Azam Ali, Public Defecation,Creepin Cadavers,Angelspit,Fly Leaf Disturbed,Saliva,Spineshank,Kittie,Basshunter,Damage Plan,Staind,Chevelle,Therion,Wednesday 13, Circle of Dead Children,Katakylsm,Murderdolls, Cannibal Corpse, NECROPHAGIST. Kalmah,As Blood runs Black, Behemoth,GORGASM,Dark Funeral,Godsmack,Nickleback,Otep,Metallica,Sepultera,Mushroomhead,Fireball Ministry,Linkin Park,System of a Down,Evanescence,Shadows Fall,Queens of the Stoneage,Nine Inch Nails,Franz Ferdinand, Devil Driver,Nirvana,Puddle of Mudd,Orgy,Fuel,Dimmu Borgir,Coal Chamber, Crossbreed,A Perfect Circle, Hatebreed,Incubus, Cradle of Filth,Three Doors Down,Deftones,Static-x,Point Blank,Judas Priest,She Wants Revenge,Seether,The Strokes,Tool,Interpol,Opeth,The Prodigy,Kiss,Trapt,Mudvayne,Crossfade,White Stripes,Red Hot Chili Peppers,Iron Maiden,Black Sabbath,Queen,GWAR,Chimaira,Drowning Pool,Bloodsimple,PIG,Fear Factory H.I.M.,Tonic,Beastie Boys,Fault,Yeah,Yeah,Yeahs,The Faint,Hoobastank,,Vertical Horizon,and Three Days Grace, Shinedown, Cryptik Howling,Leftover Crack, Tegan and Sara, Poison, Twisted Sister,Cinderella,Rage Against the Machine,The Raconteurs, The Ramones, Misfits, Rolling Stones,Scorpions,Smashing Pumpkins, The Beatles,The Retrosic, Jack Off Jill, XP8, Dawn of Ashes,Pendulum, Combichrist, Psyclon Nine, CREATURE FEATURE, The Creepshow,Barbie and the Hookers, Queen Adreena, Zombina and the Skeletones,Choking Victim, Bad Religion, Strapping Young Lad,Suicide Silence, SOHODOLLS, The Filthy Youth, VIVA HATE, 13 Cats, Koffin Kats, 45 Grave, Fake Shark-Real Zombie!,Blood Red Shoes, Powerman 5000, Purple Fog Side,Preschool tea Party Massacre,The Addicts,Tiger Army, Calabrese...and seeing as music IS my life this shall forevermore increase!
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