FreakishOne at Vampirefreaks.com

The Golden Rule is a two part rule:
Treat others as you'd like to be treated...and then, treat them as they treat you.

23 years old/young.
Old enough to know better, too young to care.
Not very good at being human.
Drink either too much or not at all.
Smoke cigarettes and cloves, and nothing else.
Contradictory. All curves and sharp edges.
Whimsical. Difficult.
Selfish, or selfless. Everything on a case-by-case basis.
Sarcastic. Bitter and cynical, and maybe jaded.
Cute and almost-innocent, but don't let that fool you--
I'm a predator, posing as a housecat.
Occasionally passionate; usually apathetic.
Hypocritical. Obsessive.
Easily hurt, but easily healed.
A little vain; a little proud.
Intelligent. Arrogant. Confident, yet insecure.
Distrustful and paranoid. Dramatic.
Masochistic and sadistic--
but also empathic and sympathetic.
Sensual. A texture-whore.
Believe that attraction can be physical without being sexual.
Careless, yet perfectionistic.
My relationship with everyone is love/hate.

Aphrodite [.fallen.]

It ((hurts))
when you find these self.inflicted.bruises
unattractive--
because some of them
[.I wear for you.]

I told you once
that I have it in me
to _worship _ you like a god;
you looked at me //sideways//,
in the kind of way that means
[.I�m not making sense.]

Do you even know the worth
of what you [hold] in your hands?

Just your pretty wind.up.enigma
//.taken for granted.//
put up on a pedestal
&& forgotten on the ^heights^.

[..I miss being looked at
like I mean something..]

myself . 2am rants . alcohol . arrogance . art . beauty . books . brawls . bruises . cats . cheese . cigarettes . coffee . colors . computers . conversation . cuddling . cuts . cynicism . dancing . defiance . donuts . eccentricity . emotional rollercoasters . fuzzy things . grapes . good hair . hands . infatuation and obsession . intelligence . italian food . jokes . kisses . kittens . knives . learning . legs . magic . masochism . memories . morbid humor . mushrooms . nighttime . nudity . obfuscation . pain . poetry . quoting myself . rabbit fur . riding bikes . running downhill . sarcasm . scars . sleep deprivation . shoulders . showers . subtlety . tattoos . techno . thrills . transience . tripping . undressing . violence . violins . webcomics . working . writing . yesterdays . zoos .

myself . addictions . ants . attention whores . betrayal . carelessness . clumsiness . condescension . crying . denial . emo . fake suicide attempts . falling . fear . guns . homophobia . humiliation . hypocrisy . ignorance . infatuation and obsession . jumping jacks . killing time . lack of self-control . liars/lies . love . nazis . organized religion . passive aggressiveness . people who can't admit they're wrong . people who overestimate themselves . quitting smoking . running . self-pity . shallowness . sleeping on floors . stupidity . the human race in general . typos . ungratefulness . untying my shoes . violation . walking . water . yawning . zombies .

in no particular order:

:Robert A Heinlein: Stranger in a Strange Land, Friday, Farnham's Freehold, pretty much anything else

:Ayn Rand: We the Living, Atlas Shrugged, The Romantic Manifesto

:Robin Hobb: Farseer books, Liveship Traders trilogy

:Anne Bishop: Black Jewels trilogy

:Anne McCaffrey: Crystal Singer trilogy

:Patricia McKillip: The Forgotten Beasts of Eld, Firebird, The Harpist in the Wind trilogy

:Jack L Chalker: Four Lords of the Diamond Series, Changewinds trilogy

:C S Friedman: This Alien Shore, Coldfire trilogy

:Mercedes Lackey: Elemental Masters series, Last Herald Mage trilogy, various others

:L Ron Hubbard: Battlefield Earth

:Gertrude Stein: How to Write

:Mark Z Danielewski: House of Leaves, Only Revolutions

:Robert Jordan: Wheel of Time series, Conan the Barbarian books

:Jacqueline Carey: Kushiel's Legacy trilogy

:Storm Constantine: Wraeththu

:Terry Goodkind: first four of the Sword of Truth series, and especially Faith of the Fallen

:George R R Martin:

:Ursula K Leguin: original Earthsea trilogy

:Aldous Huxley: Brave New World

:Oscar Wilde: Picture of Dorian Gray

:Terry Brooks: Shannara, Sword through Talismans

:Orson Scott Card: Ender's Game, Ender's Shadow, Speaker For the Dead

:Philip K Dick: Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep

:Frank Herbert: Dune through Chapterhouse

:Brandon Sanderson: Mistborn trilogy

:Brent Weeks: Night Angel trilogy

:Lois McMaster Bujold: Miles Vorkosigan series

:M John Harrison: Light

:K A Applegate: Animorphs, especially The Ellimist

bits and pieces. techno, NIN, MSI, Garbage, Emilie Autumn, 80's, 90's, Leonard Cohen, Shiny Toy Guns, Combichrist, SOAD/Serj Tankian, Voltaire, Cruxshadows, Sohodolls, RHCP, more (I'm bored with making this list).