Hello everyone.. :] In short facts: I am 21 years of age, originally from Pleven, Bulgaria.
I currently live in Holland where I study music management; physically, I am female, mentally, no particular gender. I may seem unfriendly at times, however this is only due to my style of typing, and I will always approach you with respect at any given point. That includes trolls, as long as they originate from the chans and not from something of the memebase caliber. :]

Below follows quite a large rant. By no means should you feel obliged to read it, although it may prove helpful if you're interested in a more lengthy conversation. As is to be expected unfortunately, it's going to be about me, it's how profiles tend to work.


"Every thing has more than one side to it, it just depends on your point of view". In short, I believe our perception is pretty much the key factor for the way we understand things, and perception can be altered. Or in other words, nothing should be seen as an ultimate truth; this is the basic philosophy that I follow. I do believe in human logic validated by facts though, when it comes to routine. I will base my assumptions and conclusions on it, but will not argue with opinions.
Personally, I find the balance between what we see as positive and negative a must. I have an appeal for feeling uncomfortable.. I pretty much think that consciously lowered self-esteem and bad days can teach us all a thing or two. >.>

I tend to keep my opinion to myself and usually happen to be more of a spectator than anything else.

Regarding interests, it's never enough. They are in the range of the standard post-teenage ones such as playing guitar, being a computer geek, taking photos, reading, and yeah... I have quite a thing for dancing [jumpstyle, popping, c-walk, shuffle, Irish, etc.]; those take up quite a lot of my free time. I also enjoy target shooting, and pick up an additional, short-lived hobby every month or so. I usually give it up afterwards - understanding the mechanism behind something kills the charm for me.
I enjoy human company, as long as it is impersonal. Familiarities, friendship, and expectations put me off tremendously.

Last but not least, it should be mentioned I have deep fascination with ascetic behavior. I do not support the concept of being straight edge by any means, but I do not consume sugar, caffeine, tobacco, any kind of drugs, alcohol, as well as any animal products or processed foods. I do this out of general curiosity, with a pinch of obsessive-compulsive behavior.

Enough bothering I guess.. I couldn't compress it much more than that. :p Thank you for reading. All the best...


I try to always reply, but strongly dislike small talk, in particular two-three word comments. I tried hundreds of times to give a long and relatively well-worded response to "how r u" comments, to make the conversation more interesting, and always got responses such as "k, an im good". As any intelligent person may conclude, this is a waste of time for both of us (and sort of depressing), and not a demonstration of elitism. Same goes for "I rated you so write back","plz tlk to meez" etc. Sorry, it's just sadly pointless..

I don't use msn.

I'm also aware how dysthymia is spelled. The spelling mistakes are intentional so as to keep track of fakes and not pop up in random searches. :]

Likes

[*note: you may find this info on other people's profiles. Apparently, they like to copy it. Makes me wonder.]

Music / Nature
Cold, rainy nights / Summer Storms
(My) Guitars
Being awake when everyone sleeps
Target shooting, with a Makarov preferably
Books
Cooking - I am well-acquainted with most basic and not-so-basic Japanese ingredients and use them on a daily basis; I love experiments.
Tea - the real thing. From leaves, unsweetened.
Watching anime in industrial amounts
People with good social skills... it's like using psychology in real life / Well-used Sarcasm
Dancing [c-walk, shuffle, etc.]
PC games.. a wide range of them, but primarily pre-2001 ones.
In that sense - all things that fall under rules 1 and 2, if you'll get it you'll get it.
Kittens...
German and English, also some weak attempts at learning Dutch at the moment (don't approach me in Dutch, I'm not skilled enough). I'm also learning basic Japanese currently.
Cinnamon, daffodils, lilacs, linden trees, rain.. The smell of henna. The smell of any Sencha tea. Nom.

Self-proclamation
Obvious rate-whore comments. Please get tired of it.
Sexuality, sex, and especially putting those on a pedestal. It's a boring repetitive concept and looks hilarious on top of that. I don't see any development in it.
Having my intentions misunderstood due to cultural differences
Msn and webcams
The common misconception that anime is for kids
Females who, when confronted with cold hard logic, disregard it and instead blame the person at right to be insensitive and to have hurt their feelings. This is why genders will never be equal
How people still believe meat and dairy are necessary for their diet
Breasts
Most female vocals
Luis Royo's works
True-ness. Why obviously limit yourself for the sake of some elitist movement when you can actually explore and get to know so many new types of art, ways of thinking, emotions?
Being called a "woman"
Animal cruelty - for obvious reasons
When people think their standard for a "good life" is the only one. Books = greater than real life, plz
Fake disorders
The typical "too thin - eat a cheeseburger" argument. Cheeseburgers will not make you gain healthy weight.
Unaesthetic mods, and how their owners call stubornness instead of admitting they've made a choice similar to the choice of an eastern european man wearing a pink tutu dress.
Giving out my real name
Signs
The "I- Don't-Care" attitude.. Fortunately or not, we all depend on others. This attitude is primarily used by people who care too much, to top it off.
Windy days
Diseases